Mon cercle de la vie… Pour être j'ou ne pas être je.

Tuesday, August 19, 2008

WAKE UP!!!

4:43am 20/08/08 S'pore time zone

Waiting for the clock to hit 6.30am....

To wake ZUL up for werk.....

I better dont fall asleep....

Or he B veri veri late....

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Wakey up NOra!!!

hehe.. im so sleepy but yet i dun wan to wake zul up late.... hmm.. so dats y im sooo bored n dun no wat to do.... Its like a routine for me.. ahakz....
Lucky to does guys who marry me in future, I noe how to cook, clean, n wait.... (perasan sey nora nie.. tak tahu malu.... ishk!)

Hmmm... sumtimes in the middle of the nite i love to write poems... hmmm.. watever cum in my mind... mayb 1 dae i'll write for u to read.... now so tired ley.... but hmm... sayang punye pasal semua boleh... hehe.....

So basically today i dun do much la, go werk, get bac went out w mimi (which make zul pissed w me, sobs sobs!!, my mistake... i noe he at my hse i go folo mimi... deng~, owas do stupid mistake), den reach hm i jus sit beside zul (amik hati dia la) n finally all asleep, im still stuck at the com, do stupid stuff....
Hmm... bored rite my life? haiz..... Where haf all the excitement go to? haiyo!!! I reali need to get alife!!!!

Im goin to cut down drinking, ishk.. it coz me more sickness den ever.... Smoking.. hmmp... cut down can la but stop... err... impossible... nvr.... mayb not for now... hehe...

I realise dat im still confuse w life... w wat i want to do n who i want to b wif... ishk... Mayb if sum1 will help me c dat life isnt so hard & help me c wats right n rong den i'll probably will find dat life isnt soooo confusing... ISHK!!!

So tomorrow wat shall i do? (i mean later today... hehe) werk... home... again... haiz... I stop clubbing & nitez outing... haiz... down man!! dammm!!! yea i will cook... hehe... yummy... chix soup... since im not well dats wat i'll cook, so every1 has to eat dat.. hmmmp!! (jgn cerewet ehk, da bagus tu i masak!!)

Now bac ache, wah!!! so tired.. kla... dis for now...
LOve ya...

Baby & me... hmmmm.....

Didi & me.....

Dis is wat happen wen i get extremely bored.....

& has to wake up early in the morning to wake sum1 up....

So... i mite as well done sleep & do stupid stuff...

Hahaha... im soo bored dat in the middle of the nite i had to do stupid stuff...
Hmm.. dun laugh coz i noe its stupid... but i do out of boredom...
i noe its crap, so jus bear w me for now.... hmmmm...

Monday, August 18, 2008

Mondae Blues!!! Eeeeee......

I certainly hate mondaes!!! Mondae owas has sumtink bad occur to my life... Eeeeee!!! hate it... damm.... As usual, I still haf not recover frm my sickness, haiz... Today pika cum over my hse, haiz.. He read all my msges on my hp, & he sort off got pissed by 1 msg i sent to baby, i say dat i wanted to move on n gif up waiting for him... den he start showing temper, he msg saying dat if i dun mean a tink to him if he dun love me, he wont b cumin down my hse or cared for me alot... haiz... but i jus noe him sey, like onli amth plus onli... haiz... but den having him ard me makes so happy... i owas get wat i want.. hehe... hmmm... (wah nora flirting again!!)

Haiz... wanna noe sumtink, last nite i had a nitemare.... arggggg!! Like wat sey... I dreamt i was bein chased by a very beautiful lady which suddenly turn into the most hideous woman i haf ever seen... wah i shout n shout n prayed but no1 help me... wah i wake up in cold sweat... Stupid ghost disturb my sleep!!!

I was checking tru' the calender, suddenly i realise dat my bdae falls on a fasting mth... FUCK!! i jus tot i wan go celebrate.. haiyo... my bdae mus fast... (sedih nye, tak ley mkn cake... sobs sobs).... Hmm... aside frm my bdae, pika's bdae cumin up so haf to tink of sumtink to surprised him... hmmm wat shall it b? i oready tot wat to buy for him, but wat surprise still havin tink abt yet.. aniwaez it still early, i still haf abt 3 mths to go... so lets chil the burger....NOw im tinking abt my bdae wish, haha... wonder if anibodi will gif me anitink... hmmm.... let c wat i haf in mind for bdae wish...:

I want a Big Choc Cake...
I want to b w ppl i love n cared for
I jus want to b hapi
I want ppl ard me b hapi
I wan a bdae gift, many2 of it (tak tahu malu)
I b waiting for dat sum1 to wish my bdae

Klah i dun noe wat the wish is.. haiz... cant tink of ani... hmmp!!!

Hmm.. dunnoe la wat crap im writing!! haiz.. jus done chatting w papa ken, he b goin bac uk in 2 more daes & i asked him to gif william hugs & kisses for me wen he meet him.. hehe.. gay boyz... miss calling them dat.. haha... hmmm... kla dats for now i gues, now waiting for zul to kol me.. haiz he owas love to make me wait n wait...

Wait Up!!!
I wanted to write abt mondae blues...
& all i mumble abt is rubbish!!!
Wat the hell nora....
So wat is my mondae blues...??????????????

Tell you sumtink!! Im startin to lose my patience staying at home... i am rude, i am irritating, i am a nuisance, i am ignorant, i am stubborn.... But dat doesnt mean i'll sit around wen ppl ard me gets to comfortable w my attitude my way, i'll not allow ppl to b like me... You wanna b rude, u can, but ders a limit to everytink... i noe my limit, so must u... Once if i voiced out, you wont like it, you wont accept it... I can b a silent person, I can b the most understanding person & i can also b nicest person... 1 tink i dun wanna b is bein the meanest person, coz once i reali not hapi abt sumtink, i dun gif a fuck if u wants to kill me bcoz of my words, coz i dare u to do soo... Even if it means breaking all ties w me, im fine w it... 1 dae wen u look bac u'll realise dat bcoz of ur rudeness, u'll regret it too the max... & if by den u tink im still a BITCH den i say u will nvr grow... Coz ppl wo cant cntrl their temper or limits Are definitely some1 wo dun wan to grow up... (childish!!)... Yes i admit im a bitch, you jus haven seen my bitch yet.. i didnt mean to hide it but ive learn to cntrl it... So dun try bein like me, coz i dun like, onli i cant b the only bitches ard here... & REMEMBER 1 TINK, I'M NVR AFRAID OF U OR ANI1!!! I JUS CNTRL MY SELF, MY ANGER, MY TEMPER, MY BITCH!!! SO YOU FUCKING DUN TRY TEST MY PATIENT!!! YOU NOE WHO U ARE!!!

Sunday, August 17, 2008

hmmm... william dun read!! paisey nanti!!

I jus dun understand la, Y is it ppl ard me jus loves to take me as granted!! Hate it sey!! Tried to get b somebody else but no1 is hapi.. But wen i try bein me, see la, i get bullied by every1, so unfair!! I jus cant get angry w any1 for long & 4giving is my trade mark... haiz...

Aniwaez... I still enjoying my life w a glinch of frenz dat cheer me up.. ahakz!! u noe wo u are... hmmm.. act today i wanted to write abt Orangey... hehe... so lets get to the topic.....

I noe him in a game online, start to like him den love him, even wen noe im not playing any online game anymore i still in contact w him... hmm... Soo was chatting w him again jus now n now, hmm .... Found out dat my papa is goin bac UK, yuppy!! miss him lotsy, wen he is m'sia, he 4get abt me, his B'LOVED daughter.... .... hmm I sumtimes wonder how does a long distant relationship last & continues... Now i realise dat its full of misses, n i learn to treasure every moments spend w him.. haha Hmm... Im so cheeky!! ... but ala cheeky w him onli wat, hmmp... Ive bn wondering, wen will he ever cum bac to m'sia?!!! coz if he does, i get the chance to c him face to face....... Stoppit siak nora, stop flirting!! ahakz... i jus cant i guez... So william, watch it, im goin to flirt w you all nite n dae long, (in blog).. haha...

Today.. haiz.. nutin much to check on me on sun... its the most boring dae for me.. especially today... sick n sick.. bn sick for weeks... today was the worst, sleep all dae.. ishk!!! dammm.... hmmm.. kla i'll update again soon k.... muaxXxXXx